Most facilities I have entered lately ask the same few questions before letting me through the door: “Have you had any fevers, nausea, body aches, shortness of breath?”. Short answer would be no, but most COVID-19 symptoms are also side effects of pregnancy. It’s been tough deciphering what I should worry about and what is normal.
I pictured pregnancy to be a beautiful celebration most of the time- lots of family and friends always being around, shopping, parties. Current circumstances are preventing all of it. Never have I been so anxious about anything. I am scared to go see loved ones who leave the house for non-essentials, and more afraid to be in public without a mask and lots of distancing. There aren’t enough studies on how Coronavirus affects the fetus or the mother for me to have any peace of mind. I feel robbed of one of the most important times of my life.
On top of the extra anxieties of being at a higher risk while pregnant, I feel completely alone. My boyfriend is not allowed at any doctor visits or ultrasounds. We had to seek out private facilities so he could see our son live. I am absolutely terrified for February to come around, and not have my mother in the delivery room if these restrictions don’t change. I could only imagine hearing terrible news and not having anyone to lean on in the moment. I understand that this is to protect the staff and myself, but this isn’t how it is supposed to be.
There’s very few things to do besides wait it out and do my best to keep the baby and I healthy.